Ornaments :)

We have been busy doing a bunch of Christmas activities! we did salt dough ornaments and gave the hand print ones out as gifts to a few lucky people! We did a foot print for his "first Christmas" ornament. We also did Sj's hand print onto glass ornaments and gave those as gifts as well! We tried to do the little guys but it was a huge fail lol We have been doing a ton of family activities and lots of fun  yummy baking! We have decided NOT to send Sj back to school. We are going to try our hand at homeschooling but more on the "unschooling" style for her at this time! I am nervous and excited about the idea of homeschooling. I attended a very helpful and extremely informative homeschooling workshop last week and it really helped us in our decision making.


Here are a few pictures of our Christmas ornament making  shenanigans!

Merry Christmas Blog land!!!

Talk-less Tuesday

A not so Merry Christmas

Our Daughter has been going through some serious preteen drama these days. Last Thursday we had to do something I never thought we would have to do. We had to bring Sj to the hospital in fear that she may harm herself over school drama. They admitted her for 3 days because she cut her arms up. I knew the high schools were getting bad but I never knew the extent, until now. There is so much more pressure to fit in and to belong to a certain group of kids. We are lucky that Sj can feel comfortable enough to talk to us about how she is feeling or this could have ended in tragedy. Dealing with this has really put a damper on our holidays. We are dealing with so many appointments and trying to help her the best we can. I'm hoping the Christmas bug will bite us soon but for now I'm trying to nudge it along by doing Christmas type family thing's like decorating the empty tree that has been sitting in our living room for a week.


Have a great weekend all!

Talk-Less Tuesday

Someting on Sunday..

I decided two things: one- I need to stop neglecting this little blog and two- I need to start doing something to fill up my Sundays. I see a ton of cooking, baking, and awesome craft  ideas on facebook and I always say "I have got to try that" but I never get around to it. From now on I'm going to try and do one every Sunday! lets hope I can do it!
This Sunday I made these cute button cookies! I think they turned out GREAT! They were super easy to make & the family loved eating them. I made a little collage of my cookie making adventure below.

All you need is your favorite peanut butter cookie recipe, a 1L pop bottle cap, and a straw!
right after cookies come out of the oven press the bottle cap down on them. Use the straw to make the four holes to finish off the button "look"! Carful this part can get a little hot!

Hope every one had a great weekend!

yummy :)

Talk-less Tuesdays!

2 months old

daddy & the little guy 

Coming to terms...

I have always known that T is transgender and I accept it as part of who T is. T has recently came "out" about the fact the he (I will now call T he as this is how he feels) wants to change genders. Dealing with someone who identifies as transgender is not easy but being that someone who feels they were born in the wrong body is daily torture for that person. There is not a whole lot of info for husbands and wife's who have a spouse going through the long journey of gender reassignment surgery, I am guessing this is due to  the fact that most don't stick around once they learn that their partner wishes to be the opposite sex. I love T and would not change who he is for the world. Our marriage is a strong and feisty one that can survive a nuclear love war, so I know we are safe there!

Hearing that T wanted to go through with the surgery and take testosterone was still hard, I felt as though I will be losing someone very close to me and that once all this is started I would have to "get to know" T as a Him which seems odd to me because T has always been male acting and dressing but for some reason I feel this way. I feel happy for T but in a small selfish way I feel sad for myself. My biggest fear is that it will change who T is and why I love him so much. I know there will be many many changes in the year to come, I know they are good changes. I know there will be things I will have to accept and things that I will have to let go. There are million questions I have about the whole process and I ask T a knew one everyday lol I am sure I'm driving T crazy but I'm curious on a lot of little things. I google a lot about it but it is mostly only from the person going through the surgery's perspective which can be helpful but it would be nice to hear from the spouses point a view as well .

 I could not imagine feeling like my insides are one gender but my outsides don't reflect that. It's sad and I truly believe this step towards his true self will be one of the best things that happened for him/us. For now we are on a wait list for the surgery but have all the paper work ready to go for the gender change for his drivers licence, birth certificate ext. to be changed over now as well as his name change (luckily it will still be the same name just the "Male" spelling of it) I will keep updating on this topic from time to time as I am sure there are people in my shoes who would like to know how I/we cope with the change over from female to male!

FTM/MTF art - colorpuke by troyu - http://www.deviantart.com/art/colorpuke-llD-177454357

Please spread awareness!

I am honored to share this very touching story and help spread awareness for Mesothelioma Cancer. Such a touching story. You are a strong woman Heather, my hat goes off to you and your family. I wish you many years of health and happiness! Thank you for helping get the word out for others who may find themselves in the same situation! Keep well everyone. :)

http://www.mesothelioma.com/heather/

october picture post....

Sorry I am late on this one! Happy Halloween everyone! :D

He was so little this year so we just used one of his sleepers as a costume - our little bad boy! Can't wait for next year so we can get creative! :D

Some pictures I took of our little guy xoxoxo enjoy

 

one month :)

I feel terrible that I have not been online more but things are just crazy these days ..good crazy...and bad crazy..but I'm loving every minute of having him here with us! He is truly a sweetheart! I have a few things I will be blogging about but for now we will start with pictures and that our little Oz-Lee is now one month old!
I have been lurking online checking on some blogs but just haven't found the time to sit and do a little post! we are working on getting some family photos up soon :)

welcome to the world our beautiful beautiful baby boy!

Oz-Lee has finally made his appearance into this bright world! I will keep the story of his birth just as it happened. ...short & sweet (11 hour labour is pretty short..seemed it anyways lol)

My water broke at 4 am on Sept 16th, I figured that not much would happen at this point so we went to drop of T's work van... while I was driving contractions started..I had no way to tell T as she was driving the van! they were 4 minutes apart! We arrived at the hospital 2 and half hours later. The ride was awful and painfully bumpy!  At the hospital we tried everything to ease the pain, the nurse checked me and I just about died, the woman had the longest fingernails I had ever seen..it killed! after that I did not want to be checked again...ever!! I was left alone with T. They never came to check on me to see even how we were doing or if I wanted any pain meds..and I did!!!! It was to the point of me panicking at every contraction. When the doctor arrived he checked me...no pain this time! He said now was the right time for the epidural..I agreed and eagerly awaited my relief 1/2 hour later he came and I was soooo happy to see him....insert long nailed nurse now..SHE SENT HIM AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he asked if he could do it now and she said no she needed to get a heartbeat and vitals, he then asked if she was willing to do this after the pain meds she said no....he said he would come back in 15minutes...by then I knew it would be to late and it was...I was scared knowing that at this point nothing will take away the pain but pushing him out and that's what I did I put ever ounce of my focus on getting him out! The Doctor said we would have our boy by three in the afternoon. Oz-Lee was born at 3:00pm 9lbs 3 ounces of cuteness! In the end I did get the natural birth I wanted and I am so very happy for that, In the moment it was hard & scary but after it wasn't so bad! Breastfeeding is going great too! He likes to eat!!

 I know mom's say this all the time but damn he is a beautiful  baby!

Day Two update!

Well we were hoping to go into labour on Sunday but this marks day # 2 past our due date! All seems fine with  baby and  me!  I was told that if I have not gone into labour by next Thursday we should head straight to the  hospital. That  seems so far away!! I will be 42 weeks pregnant! We are so excited it is so hard to wait for this little cutie! We hope he arrives soon so we can meet him!

Hope everyone is doing wonderful in blogand!

3 days!!

It is so hard to believe that our D-Day is only 3 days away! This pregnancy has just flown bye us!  Our hospital bag is packed, the car seat is in the car and we are all set at home for a new little bean!  I'm nervous and excited all bundled in to one big ball! No signs that the little guy is on his way, other then feeling tired. We are hoping he arrives this weekend! We will post pictures as soon as we can! Things with the move have gone very well so far :)

 I Hope Everyone in blogland has a great weekend!

What a week!

Hope everyone is doing well!

The story of our crazy move and what a story it is!

Well we had to move last Saturday, we had one day to do it all and well I was not much help as I am ready to pop! Luckily we had a few helpers and it didn't go to bad packing up the truck to leave for a new town 6 long hours away! We did not get to our new town and new "home" until 10:30 Saturday night (a very very long time to be stuck in a small car with three dogs!) The house we were renting we had not seen yet (BIG mistake) we took the guys word that it was move in ready, the price to rent it was not cheap either so we figured it had to be nice.... when we went in... it was the most disgusting home we had ever seen and we knew we could not live there but what do you do? 10:30 at night? small town? dogs? a moving truck full of everything we own? I was just trying not to go into labour at this point! T was very upset all we could do was find a motel and figure out what to do in the morning! T had to sleep in the car as we could not bring the dogs in. Needles to say it was a long night for everyone! The feeling of being very pregnant and homeless hunted me most of the night.  In the morning we woke up early and started looking frantically online and in newspapers for a house that we could live in. We were not feeling very optimistic as it was a Sunday! We waited a bit and then decided we had to make the 6 hour trip back, we did not have a place there either but we had friends and family we could stay at for a little while. About 5 minutes into our drive back we surprisingly got a call back! We thought ok we are here we minas well check it out, it was about a half hour from where we were going to live and to us that was fine. we pulled up and waited for the guy to show us the house the outside wasn't much but the inside looked awesome! He came and showed us the 2 bedroom house...it was nice but when we saw the two bedrooms upstairs we knew it would not be workable for our family, they were side by side and an open concept..no door to separate the 2. Sadly we marched outside to let him know but then he said I have one more place it`s a 4 bedroom and on a different street not sure if you are interested...of course we were! when we pulled up it was so cute and the view from the front porch was gorgeous! Our hopes were high! We were not disappointed! It was more then anything we could of asked for! Everyone was so friendly, even the Town Forman came out on a Sunday to turn the water on for us so we could have showers! I have always believed things happen for a reason and this proves it without a doubt! It is so cheap to rent this beautiful home that I will not have to return to work right away when my year of maternity leave ends! We are so grateful that everything worked out for the better!! Baby is due in 13 days!  I went to see the hospital, meet the OB staff and see where little Oz will be born! I love and have so much confidence in our new OB and the nurses at the hospital! We are getting more and more excited to meet this little bean! The hospital is still an hour away but I know we will make it!

one of the many views from our new home :)

less then 4 weeks left..

I have been so busy sorry for not getting on here sooner!
Less then 4 weeks left until our due date, and things are crazy! T is gone again this week as she has been every week for the past little bit and I am hoping our little Ozzie stays put for now!! :(  I have had little ..YES little prenatal care for last few weeks now! I am supposed to see the Doc every 2 weeks or maybe it's every week? Thankfully I saw the Doc last week and she said all looked great, only one concern was protein in my urine! She felt it was nothing to worry about as my BP was normal and good! Not seeing a doctor regularly scares the shit out of me :( I officially started maternity leave at the start of August! I have been taking this extra time to just relax and sleep..sleep.. sleep! (not that this is easy to accomplish because it is just so darn hard to get comfy these days!! Arghhh!)  I also found out that the town we are moving to does not do deliveries (OMG) and we will have to drive to the other hospital that does... an hour away...this has got me a  little on the "omg I am going to give birth in the car" side of things. T's work brings her an hour and a bit in the opposite direction so this means we could have a 2 hour journey to the hospital  if I go in to labour while she is working ..yikes! We meet the new OB next week and they say he is very good and that there is some kind of a plan in place as soon as labour hits!(phew)
We do the big move this Tuesday!! We are a mixed bag of emotions happy, excited, stressed and concerned! I believe that all will go well :)Our new house is only a 2 minutes from a recreation center, a water park, Sj's School, a mom's group, and walking trails! I am happy that we will be able to stay active & busy once the little guy gets here! We bought 3 knew items for our little champ over the weekend! We also have gotten many cute and great gifts from friends and family which is awesome!  we can not thank them enough!
Hope everyone in blogland is doing great today! I have been checking up on everyone every few days  just to make sure all is well!


Item number 1 & 2 came as a set

number 3 is our feeding pillow!






 

 

Missing the ones you love!

I imagined my time alone as peaceful and relaxing. I am realizing that missing two important people in your life is hard work! Sj and T are now both hours and hours away from me and each other! Last night was my second night falling asleep alone in a very very long time. It was hard to shut my mind off from watching unsolved true crime shows (note to self never watch these type of shoes while in a empty house at night!)….I actually slept with an ax beside the bed and the hallway light on hahaha! T will have a good laugh about the ax, but it’s staying there!!

Miss them so much! Hope this week goes by FAST!

Liebsterrific! Sorry this is so late!!

I feel so giggly! I have been nominated for a Liebster Award! :D I can't say I knew what this was until I read what it was from the Wonderfully Awesome blog who nominated me! Thank you More then Words! It's a shame I can not nominate you back! :(  Update: I was to slow at putting this post up and got nominated by 2 other awesome blogs which is a shame too because those blogs were on my list and now I can't nominate them! :( But THANK YOU so much SAMWIP & Lezbmommies! If you have time check them out!! 

Never heard of the Liebster Award? it’s basically an awesome way for small bloggers to give recognition to other small bloggers (with 200 followers or less) for the contributions they make to the blogosphere.

Here are the rules: 

- Thank the Liebster Blog presenter who nominated you and link back to their blog.

- Post 11 facts about yourself, answering the 11 questions you were asked and create 11 questions for your nominees.

- Nominate 11 blogs who you feel deserve to be noticed and leave a comment on their blog letting them know they have been chosen.

- Display the Liebster Award logo.

- No tag backs meaning you can’t just re nominate the person who nominated you.

The questions put forth to me (with my answers) are as follows:

1. What is the first thing you noticed about your spouse/partner?

The way her face lit up when she smiled 

2. If you could relive one day of your life, which would it be?

I would relive the day I met my love

3. Dogs or cats? 

Dogs

4. What is your biggest pet peeve?

People taking advantage of others 

5. What is your idea of the perfect day?

A perfect day is one that is filled with A LOT of laughter!

6. What is one television show you watch/DVR every week?

um...we have chosen not to have cable, but we do watch youtube and the show I watch the most is 48 hours hard evidence - I love true crime...

7. Are you a saver or a spender? 

Sadly a spender 

8. What made you want to start blogging?

I am not 100% on why I started I just had something I wanted to keep track of and I thought blogging would be a good outlet for my fears, joys, worries, stress, life's moments ext.! 

9. What is the best movie you’ve seen in the past year?
The life of Pi

10.  Do you have a signature dish?  If so, what is it?

yes and it doesn't really have a name LOL I just call it "that rice meal thing"...it has rice, chicken, veggies and cream of "whatever we have at the time" soup mixed together with spices and cheese on top then baked in the oven. 

11. Favorite outdoor activity? 

Does Sitting by the camp fire eating and roasting marshmallows count as an outdoor activity?  

Here are my nominations (in no particular order): Short one sorry!! 

Lesbian Dad

Queer Femme Mama  

Sirius While Black 

Stranger in Zombie Land 

Two Dads and me 

Two Mothers McGill 

Bake one Buy one 
Pieces of Religion 
Struggling to be Mothers 
The Adventures of Life,love, and Baby Making  

And here are my 11 questions:

If you could be one colour from a box of crayons what would you be and why?

What was your  favourite childhood toy?

If you could go back in time where would you go and who would you see?
What is your favourite quote? 
If you could change one thing about the world what would it be?
What is your dream job?
What is the one thing you would give someone to remember you by? 
what is your favourite flower?
What is your favourite dessert? 
Do you have any tattoos if so what is it? 
What is your favourite time of year? 

Leave,Goodbyes, And Diapers

It's official I have 6 days left of work - I decided to take my leave early. I was originally going to work right through until I delivered our baby boy right at my desk! I really have slowed down and feel like I need some time to relax and just get ready for this little guy to arrive (and move). My feet are swollen, my back is killing me, I am more tired then I have ever been in my life, the heartburn kills and I am sore at every point on my body! Feeling all these little things is worth it, but when you work feeling that way it makes for a very long day! not to mention we are moving (more on that further down!) It feels so strange to me that in a little over a week I will not be going to work for one whole year, I have worked since I can remember. (I was in school when Sj was born so she was in daycare since she was 6 months old)

We have decided that moving is go. Next week I will be alone at home for one whole week well T is up where we will be moving working. Sj will be miles away as well visiting her grandparents. I am a little nervous to be completely alone but it might be really relaxing too! It has been very stressful on me. I usually am a "go with the flow" type of person but lately I have been stressed to the max about the move and all that we have to do in a very very short amount of time! Biggest thing is that we don't have a place to live yet,  although we have a lot of people on the hunt for us and we know we will have one very soon, it just seems hard to imagine moving when you don't really have a home to move to!

Oh!! and we are now the proud owners of cloth diapers! YAY! :) I love the idea of cloth diapering,  I  really hope we can get the hang of it!!

Hope all is well with everyone!!

Life's a dance...

Yesterday we got some news. Good news but at the same time it was that stressful life changing BIG decision kind of news. We are excited about the possibility of a new start but deep inside that rumbling fear is rising ever so quickly. T got a job offer that is more pay, benefits, no night shifts or weekends and is way more stable then the one she has now. The job is a dream come true for all of us. It seems like a no brainer that we should take it! The downfall is we would have to move fairly quickly and make a decision in the next few days! The timing is perfect in the way that I can take my maternity leave at any time now that we are only 8 weeks from our due date. Moving is a big pain but with three dogs and a pregnant lady this could be hell, we have looked online and it seems to be a little more expensive to rent out where we would need to move. So would we really be making any extra cash if we were putting the “extra” on rent? So many things run through our brains… Funny how these things pop up at strange times in your life? For now we will wait and see what happens in the next few days!

Take care blogglandians! 

With all the really hot ...REALLY REALLY HOT and sticky weather all I can see in this pictures is that yummy slushy!