Sorry to this blog and anyone who has been checking in on
us! It has been a few weeks I feel bad for not getting on here sooner! I do
have a few things I want to blog about but I will start with this one and maybe
post another tomorrow!
My sister lost her baby a few weeks ago, I have been trying my
best to be there for her and help her with her up and coming wedding (July 27th).
She was so hoping to be pregnant on that day. Although sad she has come to terms with it and
has decided to stop all trying until they can figure out why she cannot carry a
wee one past a few months. Since the
news I have found myself checking and examining all the toilet paper I use in a
day! I don’t even know what I am looking for I just check to put my mind at
ease I guess? I also worry about others a little more now. I decided not to post on Facebook about our
baby appointments or anything like that. I remember how it felt finding out
that all these friend’s of mine were getting pregnant but we were not there
yet, it was sad and heartbreaking even though I was happy for them I was still
sad for us. I have so many friends
(maybe even more that don’t talk about it) who are TTC, two we meet at the
fertility clinic who had their IUI done the same day as us right in the next room
and are still TTC. I don’t want to make them feel sad in anyway by me posting
up on Facebook every little stage or upcoming baby related thing, I will save
that for this blog as then it is a choice to read it or not. Everyone I know who
is TTC is always on my mind, I am always sending out little hopes and wishes
for all of my friends and bloggers that are in the TTC journey. Routing for
them in silent hoping that soon they will have their chance to hold their
babies in waiting!
Baby Related update:
Our little monkey is the size a sweet potato, I feel the
baby moving inside me, it feels odd but comforting! We are very excited that we
get to see the baby twice next week and find out if we are expecting a girl or
boy! ( I am more excited to put a name to the belly!)
Positive vibes to everyone TTC or getting ready to TTC!!
I'm so sorry about your sister's baby - that alone makes it totally understandable that you are toilet paper obsessed. Regardless, you aren't alone - I was obsessed with checking my toilet paper. I think it's a normal pregnancy thing unfortunately.
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